TOP: Old Navy – CARDIGAN: Old Navy – JEANS: American Eagle Outfitters – SHOES: Amazon – LIPS: ColourPop Lippie Pencil in “Lumière” – NAILS: Formula X in “Obsessed”
Neutrals are my favorite color scheme. I threw on my favorite pair of distressed tomgirl jeans and paired them with this neutral tank top. This top feels like a sweater but is still breathable. I threw on my favorite cardigan which, I know, I wore in my last outfit post, but I warned you, I’m an outfit repeater. Rarely do I wear opened toed shoes in the fall, even when I’m in California. This was one of those rare moments and I decided to go with my trusty pair of nude heels. I haven’t been feeling like myself lately, which I’ll get into more later on in this post. This affected the way I dressed. I didn’t look good because I didn’t feel good. I felt awkward and uncomfortable in anything that I put on my body. I felt insecure and ugly. Hence why I rarely did outfit posts. But I’m working on it. Today was one of the first days where I genuinely loved my outfit. A feeling that I have not felt in a very long time. Now, for the life update.
Back in July, I hit “A Bump in the Road” and since then these past four or so months have not been easy for me. At 23, I have gotten to know myself pretty well. I know how easily it is for me to slip into a state of depression. There have been so many times when giving up seemed like the best and only option, but somehow I never do. So, instead, I made it a priority to take care of myself. I started waking up early every single day, drinking more water, and working out in the mornings. I started writing in a journal whenever I felt upset and even when I felt happy because I read somewhere that it’s just as important to document those moments, too.
I am a work in progress, but I can feel it all starting to pay off. Mentally, I feel like I’m in a much better place than I was not too long ago. I’m not always so tired all the time. I don’t wake up with a headache everyday. I started my online class in September. I’m taking Race, Power, and Privilege and while it’s challenging, I am really enjoying it. I get dressed everyday even if I’m not leaving the house. I started making videos, which is something I’ve always wanted to do. I’m trying to be more consistent with blogging. I’m pushing myself creatively and trying to create content that I envision in my head into actual content. I finally got rid of my baby hairs and am now rocking an undercut courtesy of Aarron. I was recently hired at two jobs and will start working soon which I am very excited about. I don’t know what the future holds and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared, but I’m choosing to remain optimistic.
Alexis Renae Griggs