Stay Wild

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Lately I have been feeling as though I have had time limit set upon me. The clock is ticking away and time is running out. I have all these expectations that I am supposed to fulfill. Things that a lot of people desire. Things that I once used to desire myself. Like a house, a marriage, and kids. At 24, I find myself no longer wanting these things. I can’t help but wonder if I ever really wanted these things in the first place or if I desired them because it was normal to aspire to these things. I just turned 24 back in November. It seems to me like a lot of people my age are settling down and I’m happy for them. They’re buying houses, getting married, and having kids. If that’s what they want then I’m happy for them, truly, but this isn’t what I want for myself. I don’t want to buy a house. I don’t want to get married and I certainly don’t want to have kids anytime soon. I don’t want to settle down. I want to run wild and stay wild. In 2017, I vow to not let fear, anxiety or myself get in the way. I will live. I will not be bound by societal limits and expectations. I will not be tamed. I will run wild and stay wild. As Isadora Duncan once said, “You were once wild here. Don’t let them tame you.”

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Saved for a Rainy Day

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I have been seriously slacking on my blog posts lately and for that I apologize. School, work, life. You know? The usual. Anyways, today felt the perfect day to share my rainy day playlist. Enjoy and stay warm my friends.

Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs

Happy Birthday Jojo

Initially, I had planned to take a “cute” photo with my beautiful purple shirt for #HappyBirthdayJojo, but things rarely ever go according to plan. Today was tough for me and I wasn’t expecting it to be which made it even tougher. I have built up a bad habit of holding myself back which is why it often feels like I am at war with myself. Today, however, I just let myself be. I left work early. I cried so much that I stained my shirt with my tears. I went back to bed and I felt sorry for myself. For 7 years, people have asked me how I manage to stay so positive after my mother died. The truth is, I don’t. I have days like today that are awful and terrible and I’m sure I’ll have many more to come. As I grow older, I am learning how it important it is for me and my mental health to allow myself to feel however I am going to feel. Whether it’s happy, sad, angry, weird, or whatever. Thank you to everyone who wore purple today in honor of my Mama. A special thank you to my brother Aarron for making me laugh when all I wanted to today was cry.

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Growth

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Photo by Aarron Griggs

Back in June, I moved from Washington back to California. I talked about this in my “A Bump in the Road” blog post so I won’t bore you with the details on why. For months, I held onto the idea that I would still be moving from California to Virginia to attend graduate school in the spring. Financially, though, it wasn’t realistic for me and I would be lying to you if I told you that it was still something I wanted. I pride myself on being as transparent and honest as possible. This blog post was difficult for me to write. I think in large part it’s because I have been struggling with this feeling of absolute failure. Deciding not to go to grad school and moving back home made me feel like a huge failure, but as N.E.R.D. sang, “Hey! Shit happens, hey, just blow it off.” If you’re a twenty-something year-old, like I am, then you’ll know the feeling of being bombarded with questions like, “So, what are you doing with your life? What’s next?” For some odd reason, that I can’t seem to figure out, we’re supposed to have our shit together by now, right? Wrong. I’m taking life day by day and holding tight to my dreams, goals, and aspirations. I am focused on living and not worrying so much about what comes next. At this point in my life, I have no idea what comes next, but I am confident that life has a lot in store for me. I have grown a lot in what feels like such a short amount of time and that’s all I can hope for out of life: is to continue to learn, grow, and be happy. Speaking of N.E.R.D. I’d like to take this time to share a playlist that I made appropriately named “Growth” which inspired this blog post and has helped me and continues to help me and inspire me even through my darkest of times. I hope you enjoy listening to it as much as I do.

Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs

Floral in Winter

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Photos by Aarron Griggs

Wow, it’s been awhile since I’ve done an outfit post and I wanted to style some of the new pieces that I have recently picked up. I bought this floral print midi dress from Old Navy during their 50% off sale and I am so happy I did because it’s selling out quick. Typically I save my floral prints for the spring time, but one of the things I love about this dress is that it can transcend more than one season. I can see myself wearing this dress come spring time paired with sandals. Today I styled it with boots, a burgundy matte lip, and my go-to handbag at the moment which you may recognize from my “What’s in My Bag?” post. This outfit was definitely out of my comfort zone. Rarely do I ever wear maxi dresses or floral print in winter, but sometimes it’s necessary to challenge yourself to do something that scares you. Besides, who says you can’t wear floral print in the winter? I hope I’ve inspired you in some small way to wear something you wouldn’t normally wear. Also, have you heard? I will be doing #VLOGMAS this year over on my YouTube channel so stay tuned and be sure to subscribe.

DRESS: Old Navy – BOOTS: JcPenney – BAG: SheIn – LIPS: Colourpop Matte X Lippie Stix in Goldie

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