Back in June, I moved from Washington back to California. I talked about this in my “A Bump in the Road” blog post so I won’t bore you with the details on why. For months, I held onto the idea that I would still be moving from California to Virginia to attend graduate school in the spring. Financially, though, it wasn’t realistic for me and I would be lying to you if I told you that it was still something I wanted. I pride myself on being as transparent and honest as possible. This blog post was difficult for me to write. I think in large part it’s because I have been struggling with this feeling of absolute failure. Deciding not to go to grad school and moving back home made me feel like a huge failure, but as N.E.R.D. sang, “Hey! Shit happens, hey, just blow it off.” If you’re a twenty-something year-old, like I am, then you’ll know the feeling of being bombarded with questions like, “So, what are you doing with your life? What’s next?” For some odd reason, that I can’t seem to figure out, we’re supposed to have our shit together by now, right? Wrong. I’m taking life day by day and holding tight to my dreams, goals, and aspirations. I am focused on living and not worrying so much about what comes next. At this point in my life, I have no idea what comes next, but I am confident that life has a lot in store for me. I have grown a lot in what feels like such a short amount of time and that’s all I can hope for out of life: is to continue to learn, grow, and be happy. Speaking of N.E.R.D. I’d like to take this time to share a playlist that I made appropriately named “Growth” which inspired this blog post and has helped me and continues to help me and inspire me even through my darkest of times. I hope you enjoy listening to it as much as I do.
Alexis Renae Griggs