Fashion Goals

I was going through my closet when I came across this old scrapbook that I made about 5 years ago. I vividly remember sitting on the floor of my room on Harding cutting out pictures from magazines. This scrapbook is compiled of all of my favorite things, my insecurities, aspirations, an embarrassing number of photos of actor Robert Pattinson, and a list of my fashion goals. When it came to my sense of style, back then, I was very into prints, patterns, and wearing rings that were far too big for my stubby little fingers. Needless to say my style has definitely evolved since 2011. Thank goodness.

    1. Sweater or shirt with a cheetah or leopard.
    2. Fringe boots.
    3. More off the shoulder dresses and tunics.
    4. Long a** comfy cardigan.
    5. Pair of high heeled boots.
    6. Jac Vanek bracelet.
    7. BCBGMAXAZRIA dress.
    8. Yves Saint Laurent ring.
    9. Juicy Couture purse.
    10. More wedges.
    11. A blazer.
    12. A snake ring.
    13. More floral sh*t.
    14. Cheetah Forever 21 headband.
    15. More rings.
    16. More dresses.

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Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs

Top 5 Podcasts

Today I’m sharing my top 5 favorite podcasts including some of my favorite episodes from each one. I love podcasts. I listen to them all the time: while getting ready, making breakfast, on long car rides, when I’m cleaning, or working on blog posts.

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BITCH Media
If you love BITCH Magazine, then you will surely love their podcast. Each week they talk about everything from feminist porn, Game of Thrones, white feminism, snacks, #BlackLivesMatter, Wrestlemania, self-care, magic and so much more.

You Should Listen To: The Evolution of Wonder Woman

The History Chicks
The History Chicks offers in-depth history lessons about a wide range of women in history who you may not have learned about in your high school history class. They talk about women like Ida B. Wells, Frida Kahlo, and Catherine the Great. They also offer links on their website where you can learn even more about your favorite women in history along with book and movie recommendations.

You Should Listen To: Zelda Fitzgerald

Psychobabble with Tyler Oakley & Korey Kuhl
Psychobabble was one of the first podcasts I ever subscribed to and I have been a loyal fan ever since. I love Tyler and Korey’s raw sense of humor as well as their fearlessness when it comes to discussing difficult topics such as coming out and body image issues.

You Should Listen To: Claude Is 3 Minutes Away

Politically Re-Active with W. Kamau Bell & Hari Kondabolu
I mentioned Politically Re-Active in my last “Current Favorites” so it’s no surprise that it’s one of my top 5 favorite podcasts. The show is pure brilliance in ways that I cannot describe in writing. Do yourself a favor and subscribe.

You Should Listen To: Dave Zirin on Loving and Hating the Olympics

Sooo Many White Guys
Phoebe Robinson, host of Sooo Many White Guys, is brilliant and hilarious. She shares conversations with her guests that are simultaneously genuine, smart, and funny.

You Should Listen To: Phoebe and Gina Rodriguez and Eddie Vedder Walk Into a Bar

Honorable Mention

The Racist Sandwich Podcast
I had to give The Racist Sandwich Podcast a shoutout specifically for their recent episode that they did with BITCH Magazine’s Associate Editor, Amy Lam. They talk about food, racism, gendered expectations, and how all of that intertwines.

You Should Listen To: Writing About Race, Family, & Food (with Amy Lam)

What are some of your favorite podcasts? Let me know in the comments below.

Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs

Photo Diary: Pismo State Beach

 

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At the end of July, we took a trip down south for a family reunion. Our first stop was Pismo State Beach. I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not a huge fan of the beach, however, I was so happy to be somewhere where it wasn’t 108° degrees. I’ve been to other beaches in California before, but Pismo is my favorite. And the dogs! There were so many beautiful dogs. The beach was clean. It wasn’t overly crowded. After a few hours on the beach, we made our way to one of the local restaurants for a seafood lunch. It was delicious. I had a cup of clam chowder, fried shrimp stuffed with crab, and fries. Just thinking about it is enough to make my mouth water. We stayed at the Chumash Casino Resort which is roughly an hour away from Pismo State Beach. Later that night we met up at a local Italian restaurant for the family reunion. It was a wonderful weekend getaway and I cannot wait to go back. Hopefully soon?

 

Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs

Dear Younger Self

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Dear Younger Self,

For, what feels like, a very long time now, I was ashamed of you. I was embarrassed by you. I hated you. You were quiet and shy. You never stood up for yourself. You were everything I never wanted to be.

For, what feels like, a very long time now, I saw myself as two separate beings.

“That’s not me.
That’s someone else.
That’s not who I really am,”
were the lies I told myself and others.

For, what feels like, a very long time now, I ran from you, in hopes that we would never run into each other again. I ran far too. I ran for 16 hours, never wanting to look back, too afraid that you might follow.

For, what feels like, a very long time now, I blamed you,
me,
we,
us,
for every misfortune,
for every lie,
every deception,
every heartache,
all those days and nights spent crying,
and feeling sorry for yourself,
our self.

For, what feels like, a very long time now,
I didn’t want to acknowledge your existence.
Until I was forced to.
Until running was no longer an option
and you,
you caught up with me.

I had nothing to be ashamed of. Nothing to be embarrassed by. Nothing to hate. You were quiet because you were told no one cared what you had to say. You were shy because you were scared. You never stood up for yourself because you were told that your thoughts and opinions didn’t matter. You were everything I never wanted to be, but I everything I needed to be.

I saw myself as two, only to realize that I was one. I am one person.
“That is me.
That’s not someone else.
That is who I was, but that is not who I have to continue to be”
are what I realize now.

I stopped running from you and I started running towards you until there was collision. I stopped being afraid of you and instead greeted you like an old familiar friend.

I no longer blame you,
me,
we,
us,
for every misfortune,
for every lie,
every deception.
every heartache,
all those days and nights spent crying,
and feeling sorry for yourself,
our self,

because none of it was all your fault,
and all of it was necessary.

Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs

Photo Diary: Monterey

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I was born and raised in California and yet I had only been to Monterey once and it was not an entirely pleasant experience. I got stuck in my seat belt, but that is another story for another time. A few weeks ago, I took a day trip to Monterey. I went to the beach, bought a pair of sandals, walked on the boardwalk, ate clam chowder out of a bread bowl, had one of the best piña coladas I have ever tasted, saw otters, and unfortunately came home with a terrible sunburn. Overall it was a great trip, except for the sunburn.

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Sincerely,
Alexis Renae Griggs